Rapture (00:55:29)
now on Revision, every "biggie demoscener" (if something like that exists) know the other big scener. so they are acting elite and arrogant (I have fine antennas for that) so that adds to NOT go near them. ;P

Rapture (00:54:53)
I think I would have had more fun in 90s to be on parties that were still small.

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Rapture (00:49:00)
true, they can't swing a magical wand and make me an extrovert who conquers every stage. but they can help me to help myself

Rapture (00:47:37)
nothing will change for me, not before i start going to psydoc. but they all are overly busy. I have to be patient and wait, the queue is long, but I'll get there.

Rapture (00:46:37)
demoscener : "it's been a great party! met lotsa new and old sceners! lotsa talk, lotsa new demos to make, lotsa new friends. cant wait for next year!" <- grrr

Rapture (00:45:47)
If I dont treat my social anxieties, I will never be bigger in demoscene, and miss lots opportunities. FUCKING FOMO !!!!!!!

Rapture (00:44:56)
i have aspergers so slightly autist, shy, introvert, hypersensitive, whatever. I prefer to be by myself. so meeting with a big punch of ppl is always scary. those eyes who "judge" you. brrr.

Rapture (00:44:02)
oh yeah, I know that, I know that.

Rapture (00:43:57)
"heh. i am scener. heh. I make tracker music. heh. yes. heh. *smiles*"

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