Rapture(00:47:37)
nothing will change for me, not before i start going to psydoc. but they all are overly busy. I have to be patient and wait, the queue is long, but I'll get there.
Rapture(00:46:37)
demoscener : "it's been a great party! met lotsa new and old sceners! lotsa talk, lotsa new demos to make, lotsa new friends. cant wait for next year!" <- grrr
Rapture(00:45:47)
If I dont treat my social anxieties, I will never be bigger in demoscene, and miss lots opportunities. FUCKING FOMO !!!!!!!
Rapture(00:44:56)
i have aspergers so slightly autist, shy, introvert, hypersensitive, whatever. I prefer to be by myself. so meeting with a big punch of ppl is always scary. those eyes who "judge" you. brrr.
Rapture(00:44:02)
oh yeah, I know that, I know that.
Rapture(00:43:57)
"heh. i am scener. heh. I make tracker music. heh. yes. heh. *smiles*"
Rapture(00:41:37)
wow that hits hard. from 8bitbubsy
Rapture(00:41:31)
"The frustration is real. Easier to just jump off a bridge."
Rapture(00:41:16)
tUM '12 was better, yup. small and cozy. I love that.
Rapture(00:40:48)
smaller parties seem like a much better way to get to know people. revision is really too big.